"Christ in the Wilderness," Ivan Kramskoi, 1872, Wikipedia photo.
“Christ in the Wilderness,” Ivan Kramskoi, 1872, Wikipedia photo.

For years, I have lived with mystery and
Wonder, questions haunting in dark nights,
Why Jesus died? Cruel, unmerciful death,
Cloud-darkened sky, temple curtain torn,
Hill of Calvary. What if Jesus lived to old
Age, how many more could he have reached,
Healed, fed, wine and water, fish and bread,
His parables, holy fount of salvation.

After his baptism and month alone in the
Desert wilderness, Jesus had changed. He
Had ventured into the desert before, place
Of solitude, quiet reflection, accounts con-
Cerning to Mary and myself. Temptations
Overcome, crucible of transformation from
Prophet and healer to divine, knowing light
To eyes, my brother, Lazarus, resurrected.

Pained secrets of Jesus’ soul, knowing he
Would die for our sins, such is perplexing
Mystery, but why not years later? Perhaps
His body could not sustain divinity within,
Flames candle-consuming his mortal form.
Yet by his mortality, came immortality of
Soul for Mary and me, for those who followed
And believed, countless touched by him.

"Christ with Martha and Maria," Henryk Siemiradzki, 1886, Wikipedia photo.
“Christ with Martha and Maria,” Henryk Siemiradzki, 1886, Wikipedia photo.

Years later, I too, ventured into the desert as
Did Christ, soul-searching for understanding
Beyond my need to serve him another month
Or year, relief of heart burdens. In retrospec-
Tion, I walked days amongst wind-rippled
Sand, pallid cobblestones. O! Dawning light,
Humbling tears, bearing this revelation: that
Ordained by God the Father, must come to pass.

This poem was derived from Luke 10:41-42: “Martha,
Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and
upset about many things, but few things are needed,
or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better,
and it will not be taken away from her.” Poetically,
Martha has taken years to reach the understanding,
mystery and wonder, of her sister, Mary.

Written whilst listening to motion picture soundtrack
for “The Letters” by Ciarán Hope. @cjhope   

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